Day 301 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Being Able to Move Into...

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Lesson 301: Being Able to Move Into...

…..the heart of connection, doesn’t mean you won’t feel pain again. What it allows us is to be able to comprehend our pain, work through it and be able to move forward again. Today we are to think about if we only expect our lives to be “good”, do we really learn? Do you feel it’s in those moments that are not “ideal” in which we really learn?

I guess I really needed to see this lesson. At the moment, I feel like I am really being challenged. Like all these bad things have come at once and now I have to deal with it. I was telling a friend how I am a bit tired of having to be strong all the time and facing major challenges every year. I know that life is not perfect, nor is it always good. This lesson serves a reminder. I think I really needed this today because I felt like I was really done with the day. My brain melted from having to re-do my CV, it was hot, it was also windy and my skirt kept blowing up in front of other people and I just felt really unmotivated to do much of anything. Being made redundant and trying to work in the existing role is quite difficult. Putting on a brace face to fake it to maintain appearances is so exhausting also. I guess this is my current pain.

I know I won’t get stuck in this pain forever. I know I need to move through it. My mindset isn’t the best but I am getting up every day and telling myself I can do it, even though I don’t feel like it. I am grateful that I have the strength to keep moving on. It’s just another challenge I need to overcome. Even though the anxiety is coming, I feel like I am going to get through it. The sooner I can secure a new job, the sooner I will feel like there isn’t such a cloud over me. I just need it to go away so I can get back to being myself.. and I will!

I just need to remind myself, it’s a small blip in the cycle. I will overcome it because I can overcome anything!

Day 301 - A Year to Clear - Check In WEEK 43 - Supporting Release

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Lesson 301: Check In WEEK 43 - Supporting Release

 This week we were learning other ways of release. Because that’s what we’ve been learning all year, there was added ways to support release. I didn’t particularly like the “yoga” poses as they didn’t do much for me. I would probably get more use doing meditation. As for causing disappointment, I think it was a good way to detach from outcomes and it was a lesson of supporting our own truth. I personally haven’t been doing that well with the challenges in my life, so I haven’t been fully focused on what has been taught. I am in a cycle of trying to empower myself so I can tackle what I’m facing. I’ll see what the next week brings..