Day 301 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Being Able to Move Into...

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Lesson 301: Being Able to Move Into...

…..the heart of connection, doesn’t mean you won’t feel pain again. What it allows us is to be able to comprehend our pain, work through it and be able to move forward again. Today we are to think about if we only expect our lives to be “good”, do we really learn? Do you feel it’s in those moments that are not “ideal” in which we really learn?

I guess I really needed to see this lesson. At the moment, I feel like I am really being challenged. Like all these bad things have come at once and now I have to deal with it. I was telling a friend how I am a bit tired of having to be strong all the time and facing major challenges every year. I know that life is not perfect, nor is it always good. This lesson serves a reminder. I think I really needed this today because I felt like I was really done with the day. My brain melted from having to re-do my CV, it was hot, it was also windy and my skirt kept blowing up in front of other people and I just felt really unmotivated to do much of anything. Being made redundant and trying to work in the existing role is quite difficult. Putting on a brace face to fake it to maintain appearances is so exhausting also. I guess this is my current pain.

I know I won’t get stuck in this pain forever. I know I need to move through it. My mindset isn’t the best but I am getting up every day and telling myself I can do it, even though I don’t feel like it. I am grateful that I have the strength to keep moving on. It’s just another challenge I need to overcome. Even though the anxiety is coming, I feel like I am going to get through it. The sooner I can secure a new job, the sooner I will feel like there isn’t such a cloud over me. I just need it to go away so I can get back to being myself.. and I will!

I just need to remind myself, it’s a small blip in the cycle. I will overcome it because I can overcome anything!

Day 300 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Your Ability to Transmute...

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Lesson 300: Your Ability to Transmute...

We have learned over the year the three passages of the heart of pain, compassion and connection. It’s about turning your pain into compassion and then connection. We can transmute our emotions in this way. We can always go from a low to higher vibration by allowing ourselves to go through the passages of the heart. Today we are to move quickly through pain, compassion and connection in a current situation. What do you notice when you do this?

What I decided to work on was my pain in motivation. Things are in a bit of disarray in my life and I am also unmotivated to try harder. I find it painful because I don’t want to get stuck in the cycle of not doing anything. It was hard to get up and just wake up enough to write these blog posts I have. I am to accept that it can drag me down if I let it. When I apply compassion to myself, it’s understandable that I would have whatever emotions I have come up because I was made redundant at work. I understand that whatever emotions rise, I have to let it, as long as it doesn’t weigh me down. I am compassionate on myself for having all this negative stuff come up. With connection, I realise that my coworkers are in the same boat. It’s not something I have to go through alone and there will be negativity for some time until I can get going and put my applications in when the company I work for advertises new roles. It’s about getting into a routine to focus on this.

What I feel by moving through these passages of the heart is that everything will be okay. whatever happens will happen and even though this is a fork in the road and I have to divert off the course I had, I just got to put out there my intentions in order to manifest a job into my life. It has placed me in a position to think smarter when it comes to money and I need to really pull everything tighter. I need to focus on my business also. I can’t up and leave a full time job just yet, but it has also served as a reminder that I need to focus on it in order to build a customer base. And, I need to write my books. There is a lot of focus I need right now. So I will go and read the books I need to in order to get my act together.

What is something you worked through today?

Day 262 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Pain is No Longer Something to Be...

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Lesson 262: Pain is No Longer Something to Be...

Pain is no longer something to be afraid of. Over these months, going through pain, compassion and connection has allowed us to confront fear in ways that we wouldn’t have been able to before. Today we are to practise just that… thinking of a moment that causes you pain, going into it and progressing it through those 3 phases. It’s easier than it’s ever been.

I personally forget to practise just this. As I’ve been developing this year into my spiritual journey and passing through the passages of the heart, I feel a lot more stronger as an individual. I think being able to tackle pain head on is something that I can do without an issue. I think it’s part of life and we should definitely work through it. I understand that it’s not something to avoid. Yes, it can linger there, but the longer we leave it, the longer it can manifest into our lives and not for the better. My pain holds me back.

During the month of August I recognised the signs of depression coming on. I had no emotions and I wasn’t sure why. I had to meditate and look within myself to find the answer. That was confronting my own pain essentially. Some of it was stuff that I manifested myself, but some was that of others infiltrating my own energy. What I’m proud of is being able to recognise that there was something I had to confront and not having the fear to face it. It was more of an attitude of “just get it done”. Not everyone has this self-awareness and I’ve definitely learned this from the 365 challenges that I’ve taken on this year. From dealing with the pain, I did apply compassion, so that I could go back to being in connection. I still learn every day and although I don’t remember these lessons, I somehow get reminded from time to time to use past lessons in my every day life. I am grateful for this series because it’s helped me to grow.

Day 231 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - After You Have Been Through...

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Lesson 231: After You Have Been Through...

We are moving through four passages of the heart. So far we have been through pain, compassion and currently going through connection. As we pass through the passages, you will find that even though you might slip into pain, you might not actually stay there for long. You might see that you move into compassion and connection easily from pain. Today we are to slip back into pain and see how long you remain there before you move to compassion and then connection.

I actually had a depressive moment on the weekend. I felt a bit lonely and that about how I’m never going to find someone I truly connect with for a long term partner. You know that same old gem that can pop up from time to time. I was thinking about all the things I didn’t have rather than looking at all the abundance I had in my life. I think what triggered all of this, is that I went on some dating apps online and realise that there aren’t many men wanting a serious relationship. They see me as someone just to sleep with and move onto the next. I think that in itself is quite sad, but I’m not judging people’s lifestyles, it’s more that it’s sad trying to find someone that wants genuine connection. Anyway, I was talking to a friend who tried to cheer me up and I eventually got out of my funk. I went to have dinner with friends and came back home to rest. I think it’s that need of wanting more than what’s in my life, which is fed by ego and not really looking at what’s good in it.

My slump lasted just an afternoon and it was something I pulled myself out of. Just reminding myself that I am blessed and it will happen in time was what I needed to do. I reassured myself that I was making an effort and that’s a positive thing. I think I just forgave myself for having downward thoughts of myself and told myself that I can do anything and things will happen. Just being around friends was a good way to be reminded of good things in life. I am going to be fine.

I think it’s important to note that we will fall down at times, but it doesn’t mean we’re going to stay there. It’s more like a passing and going… just let it flow, though also let it pass. If it’s going to come, just let it. It’s how you let the wave pass which makes all the difference.

Day 208 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - What Appears to be Failure...

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Lesson 208: What Appears to be Failure...

Failure happens in life and it’s more than okay. It can be a tool for us to move through the first passage of the heart which is pain. Today’s lesson is to think of someone in your life that you see as a “failure” and do you notice if they are awakened or not? Do you think they are moving through the passage of pain right now?

I don’t really like to think of any of my friends or family as failures. I mean, we all measure success differently and our paths are never the same as another, so how can we look at others as failures if they are living the very best that they can? I’m not sure this is a lesson for me today. I feel like only those with negative mindsets and those that look upon others with judgement, can really think of someone as a failure.

I think every person leads their own lives, we fall down and pick ourselves up. Sometimes picking ourselves up is slow whilst other times we get over issues in a faster fashion, though I don’t think when someone falls that we should see them as a failure. Who are we to judge for someone living their lives the way they want to? I have no right to categorise someone as a failure.

I do however see people going through the passages of pain. I think when people are ready to open up about it and need some support, they will reach out. There are times when I can sense it and I ask, but I wouldn’t pry into someone’s life when they are in pain. It’s more that I want to assist if they need it.

Anyway, I don’t particularly like this lesson, so I am moving on.