Day 176 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - The Person Who is Oversated...

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Lesson 176: The Person Who is Oversated...

“The person who is oversated stuffs him or herself in an attempt to feel more. The person who overindulges keeps trying to eat, drink, use drugs, smoke more—but after a certain point, it does not satisfy.”

— Sara Wiseman

Today we are to think about when we eat, drink, use drugs or take meds, to take notice of how it feels. Does it bring relief? We are not to judge and to just notice how we feel.

I’ll admit that sometimes when I eat, it’s like a chore. Like I’m doing it out of necessity and not getting any satisfaction from it. It’s like sometimes I wish we didn’t need to eat because then I wouldn’t have to worry about it. Then there are other times when I just want to eat all nice things and feel good because I’m indulging into food that is nice. My Monday consisted of eating 2 cookies for breakfast, going to a café and eating a twist on a bruschetta that had just way too much pesto on it, a soy hot chocolate, then in the afternoon I ate popcorn, had a really nice cocktail and ate some 2 minute noodles for dinner. Out of everything I ate and drank, I enjoyed my hot chocolate and cocktail. They were just creamy and yummy. They made me feel good. The food didn’t really bring me any relief – like I was hoping that the café food would be overly exceptional but it did not bring me joy.

So, taking in what this lesson is about, I guess there are times when we over indulge and things don’t have the same satisfaction as it used to. I guess I do sometimes eat and drink thinks to feel something to suppress another feeling. Like I might eat chocolate to feel better because I was previously sad or anxious, but it could only ever satisfy for a certain amount of time before the effects wear off. Maybe this is a lesson to be more mindful of the food and drink, or even smoke or drugs we consume and why we consume them?

Day 172 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Food, Alcohol, Drugs Are Toxins...

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Lesson 172: Food, Alcohol, Drugs Are Toxins...

So, today is about recognising that food, drugs and alcohol are toxins for the body just as much as excessive exercise, lack of sleep and other “good” things we feed our mind and body. When we do things in excess, it can throw us off balance. Today we are to ask our body what it needs for balance. It’s about looking deeper. Do you need rest? Do you need to something as a pick me up?

For me, I need to stop being so self-deprecating. I believe I under value myself so much and I need to do away with these thoughts. I had one of the best days yesterday where I fully took a risk in regards to trying to read tarot cards and I just trusted the Universe that it would work out. I just told myself I could do anything and went for a practise reading night and gave out some good readings. That just boosted my confidence more than I ever felt. I felt so triumphant and that was amazing. I need to continue that feeling of success every day. The more I rid myself of those thoughts that bring me down, the more I will become balanced.

What did you find that you needed today?

Day 170 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - When You Do a Cleanse...

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Lesson 170: When You Do a Cleanse...

For any type of cleanse you do, you’re trying to release something right? If you’re doing a diet change, it’s to be more healthy and maybe get rid of toxins; if you stop taking meds because you want your body chemical free; or if you’re just simply smudging to get rid of some negative energy, it’s all a type of cleanse. Today we are to limit what goes into our bodies and notice the feelings that circulate. It’s about taking away from our body’s addictions or distractions that it’s known and discover a new feeling.

I for some reason didn’t eat that much during the day and I wasn’t aware of this lesson prior – I tend to write about these lessons at the end of day. I was just eating a lot of fruit and that filled my day. In terms of thoughts, there wasn’t really much going on either. I just went to work, felt a bit tired, came home to eat, went to meditation and back home. Just went with routine and didn’t let anything bog me down in terms of thought processes. My body is clear of any alcohol and there was no sugary drinks today – not that I have too much of those. I’m trying to fill my body with just tea and water. For me it’s really about taking small steps and I can’t say my life ain’t bad at the moment. I do want to get to healthy eating but it’s sooooo hard in winter because you just crave warm, rich foods. I think if I start small with my drinking tea and water only, that’s a step in itself for a better body. What I do need to get onto is my stretches to help my back issues so this instead of laziness, I need to do the stretches to make my body feel good.

What can you limit going into your body today? And how do you feel?

Day 125 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - You May Choose Levity

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Lesson 125: You May Choose Levity...

We can choose levity or we may choose the things that bring us down or distract us. Sometimes we use addiction and distractions to numb ourselves when we can find other ways to relax. Today we are think of a way to relax without using things like drugs, alcohol, shopping, media etc as a way of numbing it away.

When I truly think about getting to a state of levity without using a distracting agent, I think meditation or spending time in nature would be a good soothing, calming way to relax. Even doing an activity that you enjoy like reading, drawing, walking might be good to clear your head. I think anything that doesn’t cause you harm is something that you should be doing. I say this but sometimes you can’t relax even when doing something you enjoy. I think music might be another alternative at this point or just a guided meditation with some breathing technique will help you through whatever problem you may be facing. Definitely the top of my list is spending time in nature. There is a sense of peace when you’re there and you can gently observe and just take some deep breaths to feel better. The air is fresher and it’s like good energy entering your body I find.

What do you do to relax?

Day 123 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - When You Raise Your Consciousness

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Lesson 123: When You Raise Your Consciousness...

This course has really started moving me in the right direction of being aware and increasing my own consciousness. It’s said that by doing this through the heart, many common problems start to disappear – anxiety, depression, anger, boredom….. Today we are to think about how often we might be consumed by these common problems. Do they stick in cycles? Do you become obsessed over them? Today whilst we are in a state of awareness and mindfulness, notice if you are cycling through these thoughts. Notice when you are engaged and when you are distracted by these common problems.

I want to state that it’s fine to have common problems. Sometimes I get so fully consumed by them that I can’t stop. Like right now for instance, I am suffering through anxiety over work. I am placed in a situation I cannot control and I have actively tried hard to not let it get to me. It is fully getting to me. I get more and more frustrated as others hold my fate in their hands. This has been an ongoing saga for the past 6 months and I have been looking elsewhere for another job, but with limited options and me looking at pay cuts, I just can’t afford to give up this role. When people higher up do sort out the situation, I will have a great opportunity to build a department from bottom up – that’s something I’m looking forward to. I have yet to transition to it though and this is causing me anxiety as I wait.

I can’t seem to disguise this from my mind though. I do meditation, I go for walks to clear my mind, I try to be mindful but it keeps plaguing my mind. The constant frustration and the knowing I’ve got a hold up at work, just doesn’t make me want to go to work, to the point of not being able to get out of bed. That’s shit. I can do all these spiritual techniques, but as soon as my mind has a free moment at work, I think about my shit situation again. I look forward to the times after work as that’s where I really feel great. I’m doing something I enjoy and life is good. Cycle through to the next morning again and I’m like “No, I just don’t want to go to work”.

I try to remain engaged. I really am but I’m at a loss here. The only way out is to find a good paying job equivalent to what I do or keep waiting out. I think the company I work for has really failed it’s staff as this is the same for other team mates. The moments I have full engagement is my witchcraft or card readings, anything away from here.

I think we can be conscious, but also have some limiting factors in our life. I think the benefit for me is that I am aware and if I wasn’t, I would be completely worse off than what I currently am. I think with my continued efforts and seeking professional assistance is going to help me. I would rather not have these shit situations to begin with, and if I had control in this situation, I wouldn’t be hanging around to be miserable. All the advice I can give is keep working at whatever distracts your mind until it finally dissipates. Some people take a few days, whilst others it may take longer. We shouldn’t judge ourselves whilst trying to better our situation. I think the key is to actually try and apply awareness in our lives.