Day 108 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Self Loathing is the Root

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Lesson 108: Self Loathing is the Root..

In society we are often falsified with images or a mentality, that we need to be perfect – we need the perfect body, we need the perfect skin, our decisions need to be perfect, our work needs to be perfect… What does this create within us when we do not achieve this perfectionism?  – self-loathing. When we are less than perfect, we start to self-sabotage ourselves with downward thoughts that we aren’t good enough and not perfect. But that isn’t true at all. The ways we’ve been conditioned grows into this belief of perfectionism but it’s really not achievable if you think about it. It’s like setting a standard so high that you are bound to fail. We need to do away with the notion that we need to be perfect. What we should understand is that we all are ever growing, ever expanding, ever learning. When we can accept this, our possibilities are boundless.

Today we are to think about what we were like 1 year ago, 5 years ago, 10 years ago…. What were you like and what did you learn? If we let go of the self-loathing, you can see you were growing during those moments.

I know I felt lost a lot of my life, especially during my twenties. I know I felt like I wasn’t good enough and wasn’t capable of achieving anything in my life. I feel like this was a common theme even from when I was a teenager though I believe it stems from being bullied and not having the confidence to do anything. I didn’t have the drive I could have but maybe I wasn’t supposed to. I think whatever I went through happened the way it was supposed to lead me to the individual I am today. I still have some negative thoughts towards myself but I’m good in correcting them or doing away with them. I think because I am self-aware in what I want, I am good at striving towards them at the pace I need to go. I have done away with any thoughts around trying to be perfect and just work hard at being the best version of myself.

so, in what ways have you grown?

Day 108 - A Year to Clear - Your Spacious Zone

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Photo by Georgia de Lotz on Unsplash

Photo by Georgia de Lotz on Unsplash

Lesson 108: Your Spacious Zone

The theme of fluidity is continuing today. Is there something you can do today that will bring about a more fluid day? Is it something you can adopt ongoing?

The most simple exercise suggested is to take in a deep breath and exhale repeating “I choose ease”. You can adopt any phrase or mantra you like. Whatever embraces fluidity and helps you flow through life.

I decided to use the phrase “I choose mindfulness”. I think I can get overworked or overwhelmed by things that go on in my mind. I think if I can focus on mindfulness and proactively implementing this into my day, I am more productive in my day. Let the stresses escape my mind and just focus on the task at hand. If I’m productive at work, then that should transcend into my personal time. But, also not allowing so many thoughts that are no use to me cloud my mind. I think when I am at work, I get anxiety and stress. I need to let these thoughts go by being more mindful. Focus on the important things, getting through that in steps and then not think about it further once I’ve dealt with it. It takes some conscious effort to be more present. I got to let feelings go and not let it consume me.