Day 318 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Those Who Seek the Dark...

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Lesson 318: Those Who Seek the Dark...

“Those who seek the dark, do so to be in pain. They believe it is easier to stay there; but it is not. If you are in pain, if you are still moving from pain into compassion, take a look at this now.”

— Sara Wiseman

Today is to move some pain into light. That’s where we are all headed in the end right? We can ask ourselves to move pain into compassion right now. There is nothing stopping you from transitioning like this.

I sometimes forget about moving my issues from pain to compassion and then connection. I sometimes have reminders that pop up in my life through subtle angelic messages and synchronicity. I was wallowing in some dark emotions recently but I was reminded by some positive affirmations to think about all the good I have in my life. I watched a facebook video recently that I had seen a year or so before. This video had colour blind people receiving those special glasses to help them see in colour. A lot of these people started crying as they saw colour for the first time. It reminded me of all the things I take for granted. I had been looking at my life of all the things I didn’t have, when right there and then, I had the pleasure of seeing in colour. Something I don’t think about as being a gift and yet some people go every day without this simple pleasure.

I decided there and then to start a gratitude practise of just saying some thing out loud of what I am grateful for. I didn’t need to be in the pain of whatever I was going through – I just needed to change my thinking. I moved from pain to compassion. It’s something to keep up for sure. I am not perfect and don’t always remember these lessons, but I find, there is always something trying to remind me.

What did you overcome today?

Day 299 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - The Dark Energies...

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Lesson 299: The Dark Energies...

…are out there to lower your vibration. They exist in our every day lives and sometimes we just don’t even notice them. Today we are to check where your heart is at. If you are in pain, take a moment and know that you can always allow it to flow through you and then allow it to flow through compassion and connection. Dark energy doesn’t need to stay with you if you open your heart through those passages. Know this and understand this.

I am currently in a low vibration due to being made redundant at my work. Now I need a full time job to survive. I pay for my own bills. I pay for my own mortgage. I am a single person. At the moment, I don’t see the point in doing any of my work because if I’m being made redundant, then what is the point of it all? I should be doing much more towards securing a job. I am currently riding the waves of the emotions that come along with not having a job and no security at the moment. I think what I am most disappointed in, is not having more of a savings for myself so that I could survive a bit better. I am not interested in anything else at this point but securing a job. I do have compassion for myself. I know it’s okay to feel what I am feeling. I know I shouldn’t feel bad. I need to allow it to flow and I will move into connection when I am ready.

I will get out of this low vibration. I just need to go through the pain of it to start moving forward.

What is happening in your heart today?

Day 201 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Holding Consciousness is...

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Lesson 201: Holding Consciousness is...

…. Is holding a torch up in the up in the dark. It is about being awakened to things you never thought of before. It’s a deeper understanding of yourself and that of the world around you. Even the smallest of changes in ourselves can make a world of difference. You might notice how you touch others in this way and how your light can lead others out of their own darkness.

Today we are to think about the ways we have become illuminated in the past few months and tell of your story of having your consciousness expanded.

My journey is very much a continuing story from last years awakening. If I am to focus on the last few months and how my consciousness has expanded, there has been a lot more self-acceptance than I’ve ever had in my life. I think being able to just be myself in my spiritual path as a medium and witch, is something I used to shy away from others but I think the more people I meet that have a spiritual side, the more I feel comfortable in my own practises. The light of others have definitely let the light in me shine. If I didn’t have a community to share my experience, then I would just attempt things on my own.

I think I’ve expanded to be more accepting of others as well. I think everyone has a story and I am not quick to judge anymore. For example, if someone has a tell tale reaction to situations with anger, to me, there must be a reason for that type of reaction. I don’t want to be insensitive to people’s stories so I keep an open mind in this way. I try to think about what might be impacting them and why they act in this manner. I’m not quick to assume they are just being unreasonable. I try to think outside the box.

I also try to be a light for others. I think when people trust me enough with their stories and reveal the darkest parts of their soul, I feel privileged that they resonate with me to share such a deep personal experience. I want others to open up as much as I have in this past year. I think it’s okay to embrace the dark parts of yourself, as long as you’re working through it to shed some light on it. I try to encourage people to be open to facing these parts of themselves in order to grow.

I think a lot about what I can do to change the world. It doesn’t have to be a grand gesture but how I can impact people by leading a good life. I am currently in the works of making my spiritual learnings into a business and once I feel I’m in a good place, I need to expand myself out more. I got projects and ideas in the works and it’s all just about making it into a reality. All in due time!

Day 70 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Each Person on Earth Contains...

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Lesson 70: Each Person on Earth Contains...

Today is very much acceptance of our shadow self and our Divine self. To imagine them as a whole in the centre of the body, acknowledging that the shadow part of ourselves – anger, pain, suffering, anxiety etc, is very much a part of all the notions we hold as “good”. We can become truly Divine when we can accept both parts to shape us into this whole. Once doing this visualisation, I am to note any changes in energy.

So, I visualised my shadow and divine energy in various ways. I saw one black wing in my back and one white wing. Then I visualised a black silhouette of myself on one side and a white silhouette on the other. I combined the energy to go to my solar plexus chakra and the energy became two fishes swimming around like a Yin Yang. Those two fish are just circulating and combining this dark and light side. Further to this, I feel that energy circulating and radiating out.

After this visualisation, I kind of feel a bit drained. Almost like it was a realisation I didn’t have before but have now been awakened to. But over the last few days, I know that this has been the theme of accepting the dark parts of our self, as well as the light/good sides. We are balanced beings by having the two. Maybe I am feeling a bit drained and woozy from the day I’ve had but not necessarily from that visualisation. Unless my body feeling drained is just more of an acceptance that helps my soul and my soul got a bit of a hit by receiving this information? No matter this feeling, I appreciated the meditation I had in encompassing dark and light sides.

Day 16 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - There is always light...

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Lesson 16: There is always light...

“Lesson 16: There is always light, and there is always dark. As a human being, there is never a time these two do not coexist, commingle, in your life. Both aspects create a whole; this is integration.”

— Sara Wiseman

Today’s lesson is targeted at those that do not believe in the existence of light and dark. The exercise involves reading the lesson, pondering on it and consider how your life would change if you believed in your own “divine imperfection” and “divine perfection”. I can tell you about how my life changed when I starting seeing this in my life.

I feel like I’ll be repeating myself but it’s how I changed to see something bigger than me. I was at my lowest point in my life last year after my abortion, crying on a beach in Maldives, asking the universe “What is the point in life? Prove to me there is something bigger than me?” etc and I was so angry and empty. That was by far the darkest point for me and it also continued to plague after that trip. The universe responded to me in the most beautiful way, sending two angel fish to swim around me, and to me I got my answer and got told! It was so beautiful that I cried some more, vowed to make changes in my life because through my darkness there was light. Maybe I had to go through tragedy and sink that low to be shown. Some might say it is coincidence. I say, I needed hope when I felt despair, but that hope is never lost.

It was through that experience where I was exposed to the imbalances we experience in life, and when you feel like you’ve really lost, or have a sense of generally feeling lost, the universe surprises you with a gift of light. I was shown perfection in life through my own imperfection. That’s where my outlook really changed. I have more tolerance for others even when they are untoward, I try to come from a place of understanding when we all have differences in opinions and values and if I disperse an outward position of love that’ll help spread when others feel down in the dumps. We can all make changes in our life by accepting this one concept of light and dark – by not staying in too much of one or the other, and accepting that both exist in all situations, life, nature and in our selves. It's like the force that binds us all together. Totally channeling Star Wars there but it is truth!