Day 191 - A Year to Clear - Being With Imperfection

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Lesson 191: Being With Imperfection

It’s important to note that we all have both negative and positive thoughts as well as traits. Traits are tricky because it’s really based on perception – in my opinion. We have high emotional days and next minute it can be low. I wouldn’t say we are always in happy states all the time. Today we are to be with our imperfections. To me, this means taking on those not so good thoughts and understanding that they don’t necessarily make us the person we are.

So today, I had some shitty things happen at work. My imperfect thoughts were that of anger and I felt like management could do a better job essentially. Thoughts circulated around like “gawd some of these decisions suck” “why do I work here?” “who makes these decisions?” “they don’t really care about us”… it goes on and on. At the time, I didn’t really think in a spacious way. This whole course always talks about facing the weather that comes, but applying awareness as to why you have that thought, and how you can turn it around. Let’s just say I did not apply awareness at all. I just wanted to be angry. The point is, we aren’t always going to be perfect…. And that’s okay! It’s this acceptance we need to make about ourselves that we have imperfections and to not be so hard on ourselves. We all make mistakes and it’s about learning. My lesson today was that sure I was angry, but was there another response I could have taken? I definitely could have taken a better approach and I’m aware of that. I can learn from this situation.

What was an imperfect action you had today?

Day 91 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - There is No Sin...

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Lesson 91: There is No Sin...

We need to do away with thinking that people are perfect. There is a perfection we place on things, situations, others and ourselves that is unrealistic. We make mistakes as much as the next person – we just all operate on different levels and perceive mistakes to be one above the rest or not so bad based on our own opinions and morals. The idea behind the title of this lesson is that there isn’t sin but there is definitely mistakes we make and how they impact our consciousness. Today’s lesson is about writing about how you’re not perfect and to celebrate it.

I never claim to be perfect in anyway. Whenever someone describes me as perfect I actually squirm because I believe no one is perfect. I believe we’re all perfect in our flaws and even have Machine Gun Kelly lyrics tattooed on my arm saying just that “Our flaws are what make us perfect”. I think there is a beauty and uniqueness in that lyric. It’s imperfection that makes us beautiful. We tend to have way too much idealism against things such as material items, beauty standards, body shapes and sizes… the list really goes on and we’re forced into standards that are unrealistic and warps our brains into some idea about perfectionism.

I personally believe we are all great in our own way. The ways in which I state I am not perfect include:- I do not claim to have a great body and don’t strive for some slim, model body. I sometimes am lazy but I recognise that I am. I like to eat crap when I’m watching a movie and don’t feel bad for it. I don’t like everyone in this world nor should I. I can be passionate when I want to be but can also be just as demotivated. I can be annoying and do annoying things because I think it’s funny. I binge watch TV shows and take time off work just to binge watch shows sometimes. If I’m staying home all weekend, sometimes I don’t even shower. I don’t do things because you want me to. I don’t always listen to my mother. I sometimes go against my own advice. I don’t always admit I need help.

These are just a few of my imperfections. Can you admit to yours?