My decision to abort - Part 11

Still working through the depression. Right now I can't find the strength to even clean my house.

People offer help but I don't know exactly how they will help me. I don't want people seeing my environment the way it is. I know it's going to take time.

I'm a bit erratic. I am trying to think of the larger picture of my life. Some major faith is needed and I'm really working towards that.

Sometimes I hate having to be strong all the time. Like I'm supposed to work through it because I'm considered a strong character. People keep saying I am strong and I'll get through it. I appreciate that they can see that in me but I'm sick of being told it. What's wrong if I need to meltdown a bit? Not saying I'm going to go into a complete meltdown, but I should be allowed to let it pour out.